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The Shmuley tapes

2000-2001

I think all my success and fame, and I have wanted it, I have wanted it because I wanted to be loved. That’s all. That’s the real truth. I wanted people to love me, truly love me, because I never really felt loved. I said I know I have an ability. Maybe if I sharpened my craft, maybe people will love me more. I just wanted to be loved because I think it is very important to be loved and to tell people that you love them and to look in their eyes and say it.

Michael Jackson, The Shmuley Tapes

Youtube channel GMJHD explains:

The tape recordings were revealed by the Rabbi on a few news broadcast networks such as CNN and Dateline NBC after the release of his book. The source for the tapes used in this video are these 2 network broadcasts.

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Bolded are the parts of Michael on tape.

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MJ: I can’t deal with it. I love beautiful things too much and the beautiful things in nature and I want my messages to get out to the world, but I don’t want to be seen now. . . like when my picture came up on the computer, it made me sick when I saw it.
SB: Why?
MJ: Because I am like a lizard. It is horrible. I never like it. I wish I could never be photographed or seen and I push myself to go to the things that we go to. I really do.

MJ: Yeah, I wanted to become such a wonderful performer that I would get love back.
SB: So you could change him, you thought. If you. . . so you thought that if you became a great star, very successful, and were loved by the world, and were very successful, your father would love you too.
MJ: Aha.
SB: So you could change him that way.
MJ: Aha. I was hoping I could and I was hoping I could get love from other people, ’cause I needed it real bad, you know? You need love, you need love. That’s the most important thing.

MJ: Yes, because before me you had [Harry] Belafonte, you had Sammy [Davis, Jr.], you had Nat King Cole. You had them as entertainers and people loved their music. But they didn’t get adulation, and they didn’t get [people] to cry and they didn’t get, “I am in love with you, and I want to marry you.” They didn’t get people tearing their clothes off and all the hysteria and all the screams. They didn’t play stadiums. I was the first one to break the mold, where white girls, Scottish girls, Irish girls screamed, “I am in love with you, I want to. . . ” And a lot of the white press didn’t like that. That’s what has made it hard for me, because I was the pioneer and that’s why they started the stories. “He’s weird.” “He’s gay.” “He sleeps in a hyperbaric chamber.” “He wants to buy the bones of the Elephant Man”—anything that turns people against me. They tried their hardest.

MJ: And the press, they wait with knives.
SB: For you to fail?
MJ: Absolutely. They try and shred me apart so it has to be beyond expectation, beyond brilliant. I give everything I have.
SB: But it wears you out?
MJ: Yeah. Because when you are the top-selling artist of all time, the records that are broken, they wait. . . you are the target.

MJ: Absolutely. Because every time I talk to him he is in better spirits. When I spoke to him last night he said, “I need you. […] Then he calls me “Dad.” I said, “You better ask your Dad if it is ok to call me that.” He shouts, “Dad, is it ok if I call Michael, ‘Dad?’” and he says, “Yes, no problem, whatever you want.” Kids always do that. It makes me feel happy that they feel that comfortable.
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MJ: I always feel that I don’t want the parents to get jealous because it always happens and it rubs fathers in a strange way. Not as much as the mothers. I always say to the Dads, “I am not trying to take your place. I am just trying to help and I want to be your friend.” The kids just end up falling in love with my personality. Sometimes it gets me into trouble, but I am just there to help.


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